ok fine i lied. i didn't sleep the whole day like i claimed. instead i spent half the day trying to beautify this somewhat dead journal of mine. so does it look swell? anyways, this cb of an internet is driving me up the wall. it's always losing connectivity and i'd have to disconnect and reconnect this whole bugger up just to access the net! the weird thing is that i can dl torrents which brings me to the point that i've succesfully dled zombieland. the brothers bloom and the xx full album (yay!), but i can't go to sites. it's so frustrating. anyhoos, i'm so bored out of my tits trying to research on my ass, no thanks to the bugger. i managed to clean half of my shithole then gave up halfway, dl new games for my itouch and other stuff.

and it bugs me on how a tad too cheery i sound like right now. SINGTEL BROADBAND SUCKS.

i hate the person i become when im in love with you. i get uptight, paranoid, bratty and stupid and it's all my doing. people like me never seem to learn, do they? u really bring out the best in me, comfort me, make me feel like the most special thing above all although i'm really not, and all i do is fuck things up. i hate myself.

i did something that i never ever thought i would, yesterday. i hate not getting things done right the firt time. but that's always the thing for me. i took my tp twice, hell i didn't even get my citi job the first time round. it was only when they called back after the interview that they decided to take me in anyways. i feel so.....secondhand. urgh hate being emo. i know i went with no expectations but i can't deny feeling that i should get in when i get closer to the line. hahahaha i guess that's what i get for wishful thinking. i think it sucks to be me.

forever gorging myself with food. i dono why i even bother with anything at all. hmmm okay my sister finally got a job and that's so cute cos it's so hard to imagine that. she's still my sissy after all. small innocent amal. so anyway yeah new moon didnt suck so bad. as of now i'm no longer team edward. nor jacob. jacob is too beefy it freaks me out a little. anyway, i think ive found a calling. ssshhhh. another week of school that's got to suuuuck. xmas dinner to look forward too! gifts exchange! yipee. and movies to watch: zombieland and case 39. hungry again. ciao!

I love my boyfriend so much. I think he's the bestest damn thing that has ever happened to me. Its like I can meet him everyday, have long conversations with him evrynight and I'd still be stoked to go out on dates with him. I think he fits me like a glove. And he listens.