ONE FUCKING MEAL PER DAY. NO, SERIOUSLY.

so hari raya is over and done with, move on people. i took some crappy photos over the long holiday (so called) or maybe i just look like crap. hey ho. i think i have kuaypows for cheeks. eversince fasting month ended, i have been snacking non stop. how to lose weight like that? they made it look so easy on tv. anyway i think my digicam takes crappy photos or maybe im just too lazy to learn how to customize features (?) ever since i saw my cousin lug around the big slr or whatevs they call it i want one too. obviously just to act professional hoho now only if they made them in compact sizes. sadly it's just a want just like every other redundant thing in my room. besides having short lived enthusiasm i have short lived desires too it seems. oh well. ugh. hate this life. i think im dying with every beat.



prolly the only decent photo(s) of hari raya that i have.

WHY THE FUCK IS MIKA SWIMMING IN MY HEAD?

okay i am totally digressing right now but i just gotta say muse's latest album sounds so weird. its kinda poppish, too poppish i would say. sigh. what happened matt? saddd. was really looking forward to their latest offering but oh well. dayumm.

so i finally added stuff to this dead blog. tag if you want, heck i'll be the butt of the joke cos besides bunny i dont think anyone else knows the existence of this shit. but oh well. it was a toss between livejournal and blogspot but i dont think it makes much difference anyways. so hello! am finding it so hard to function right now cos of the weather.

so here i am back to square one just staring at this screen waiting for something interesting to appear. life's beeen so fucking dull there's nothing much to say or do. OH I'M FINALLY GONNA GET MY OWN CAR! that's pretty interesting right to say the least.

so i have a truckload of stuff to finish. but. i. can't. find. the. drive. to. do. anything. all i wanna do is lie in bed and be bedridden for the rest of the day. there are just so many fucking unintersting things to do like starting on my ass (eeew), clean my room, buy a fucking wardrobe so that i can finally walk freely in my room without having to worry bout tripping. i'm a mess. and that's something new.


and just for fucking fun:

HAHAHA stole it off your fb. i looove you baby!
gee. i think this is the longest post i have ever written in a long time.
ok bye.

I'm having such a stupid morning right now. eat eat eat eat. never ear will die meh??? Cb

hate the feeling when people are taken away from me. hate feeling excited for no apparent reason. its just..stupid. i have issues.

what's the point in living despite having a bright future, a stable (shit) job that pays you well, a big house or your own stupid car which you don't even need, if you have noone to share it with? not much if you ask me. I've walked down this road far too many times in my life its so frustrating. its apparent that I need you in my life.

there are just far too many things in my mind right now for me to put them into words. why can't everything fall into place. whyyyyyyy dear god, why?

my enthusiasm lasts as long as a lighted matchstick. i'm supposed to be starting on my assignment but as usual procrastination got the better of me. yeah, again. sigh. i wish i could see my boyfriend later today but..umm we shall see. it has been a non productive week this whole week. sadly the week ends in lesser than 48 hours. everything moves at fuckfast speed, even breathing is a waste of time. i sound so old. ok bye, before my cibai of an internet die on me. my life is as stagnant as a...u figure that out.

nothing much to say or do. currently just idling nursing a swollen eye.
sighhh. i'm a broken heart.