what's the point in living despite having a bright future, a stable (shit) job that pays you well, a big house or your own stupid car which you don't even need, if you have noone to share it with? not much if you ask me. I've walked down this road far too many times in my life its so frustrating. its apparent that I need you in my life.

there are just far too many things in my mind right now for me to put them into words. why can't everything fall into place. whyyyyyyy dear god, why?