i've been procrastinating the whole week and i know i really neeeed to get down to doing something that i have to but it's so difficult to function right now. you know, my boyfriend is prolly the most awesome thing that has happened to me ever and i will never ever let anything happen to jeopardise what we have cos we all know who's the one always fucking things up. i don't wanna jinx it but really i am very very happy happy with where i am and whatever i have right now. he makes me happy and it's crazy but i miss him everyday. it's almost a year already but it still feels awesome. it's like i'm walking on freaking sunshine everyday. it's crazy the way i feel for him. i've never fallen for anyone this hard before. this feeeels so real it's insane :)

spent the whole day watching movies after movies. i foresee a very fat, long weekend. gaaahh! so i'm turning a year older in like less than 2 weeks. i wonder how i will be spending it. no expectations (sorry!) but my bf said he had planned something. it's just......another birthday. another day closer to death. haha. anyways i have been very lazy of late. i haven't met up with ANY of my friends. i guess they are busy with their own lives and i have been busy with mine. time really do change everything huh. i barely hear from them anymore i mean i can't be bothered to fix anything that is already broken. i really learnt that the hard way. what else is there to say. eventually everybody leaves you. someway somehow. on a totally different note, i have been offered a permanent position in citi. there. it seems real-er when i type it out. i don't know man. grateful? definitely yessss. maybe this is it. but there's this nagging feeling that if i don't do something else now, i'm gonna end up doing this job for the rest of my life. and that is gonna be painful.

this mother of a bag costs a whopping $3880! but it's so nice i won't mind eating grass for the whole year. rahh! yesterday's paper was a fricking disaster. definitely a D for that one. i seriously need a holiday. a real fucking holiday. not just mindless trips to malaysia or batam. i've been saving all my life and when school fees officially ends next month, i'm free to spend every single cent of mine. okay, maybe not everything but you get my drift. am excited for the melb trip with cherbie bb! ooops back to the books now! ciao