aishy my ass

2010-02-21T21:41:00.002+08:00

ok in an attempt to do something different, we went to labrador park. you couldn't tell could you, from these photos. haha. it wasn't really my thing though. it was too nature-y and quiet. then it rained. bummmmer.

light my fireeeeeeee

2010-02-19T23:22:00.004+08:00

i've been procrastinating the whole week and i know i really neeeed to get down to doing something that i have to but it's so difficult to function right now. you know, my boyfriend is prolly the most awesome thing that has happened to me ever and i will never ever let anything happen to jeopardise what we have cos we all know who's the one always fucking things up. i don't wanna jinx it but really i am very very happy happy with where i am and whatever i have right now. he makes me happy and it's crazy but i miss him everyday. it's almost a year already but it still feels awesome. it's like i'm walking on freaking sunshine everyday. it's crazy the way i feel for him. i've never fallen for anyone this hard before. this feeeels so real it's insane :)

infinity

2010-02-15T23:38:00.003+08:00

what's a girl to do

2010-02-14T20:49:00.003+08:00

spent the whole day watching movies after movies. i foresee a very fat, long weekend. gaaahh! so i'm turning a year older in like less than 2 weeks. i wonder how i will be spending it. no expectations (sorry!) but my bf said he had planned something. it's just......another birthday. another day closer to death. haha. anyways i have been very lazy of late. i haven't met up with ANY of my friends. i guess they are busy with their own lives and i have been busy with mine. time really do change everything huh. i barely hear from them anymore i mean i can't be bothered to fix anything that is already broken. i really learnt that the hard way. what else is there to say. eventually everybody leaves you. someway somehow. on a totally different note, i have been offered a permanent position in citi. there. it seems real-er when i type it out. i don't know man. grateful? definitely yessss. maybe this is it. but there's this nagging feeling that if i don't do something else now, i'm gonna end up doing this job for the rest of my life. and that is gonna be painful.

where would i be

2010-02-10T23:35:00.001+08:00

love my bunny ♥

in love with something real

2010-02-10T00:13:00.001+08:00

love this song!

twilight galaxy

2010-01-24T18:33:00.002+08:00

this mother of a bag costs a whopping $3880! but it's so nice i won't mind eating grass for the whole year. rahh! yesterday's paper was a fricking disaster. definitely a D for that one. i seriously need a holiday. a real fucking holiday. not just mindless trips to malaysia or batam. i've been saving all my life and when school fees officially ends next month, i'm free to spend every single cent of mine. okay, maybe not everything but you get my drift. am excited for the melb trip with cherbie bb! ooops back to the books now! ciao

..

2010-01-19T21:43:00.004+08:00

yes i'm still alive. just that i can't be bothered to update this crap anymore but i'l do it right now for the sake of hmmm maybe my one loyal reader? lol im so fucking pissed off right now. just got my bs module results and i got a FUCKING NG FOR THE FUCKING MAIN ASSIGNMENT like wtfffffff!! it's cos my stupid team member forgot to add in our names in the fucking assignment page and only on the cover page! like how fucking stupid is that!! give me a grade!! just a grade not fucking zero! geees im so screwed my gpa is definitely rolling downhill godddddd can't fucking wait to be done with stinking school! on a somewhat different note, really dont know what i want anymore. my life is as blank as a piece of fucking white paperrrr. anyway just wanna share with you:

jamie aditya reminds me of my boyfriend.

so cute!

reminds me baby of you

2009-12-25T19:22:00.004+08:00

ok fine i lied. i didn't sleep the whole day like i claimed. instead i spent half the day trying to beautify this somewhat dead journal of mine. so does it look swell? anyways, this cb of an internet is driving me up the wall. it's always losing connectivity and i'd have to disconnect and reconnect this whole bugger up just to access the net! the weird thing is that i can dl torrents which brings me to the point that i've succesfully dled zombieland. the brothers bloom and the xx full album (yay!), but i can't go to sites. it's so frustrating. anyhoos, i'm so bored out of my tits trying to research on my ass, no thanks to the bugger. i managed to clean half of my shithole then gave up halfway, dl new games for my itouch and other stuff.

and it bugs me on how a tad too cheery i sound like right now. SINGTEL BROADBAND SUCKS.

.

2009-12-20T12:21:00.004+08:00

i hate the person i become when im in love with you. i get uptight, paranoid, bratty and stupid and it's all my doing. people like me never seem to learn, do they? u really bring out the best in me, comfort me, make me feel like the most special thing above all although i'm really not, and all i do is fuck things up. i hate myself.

satelite heart

2009-12-19T01:44:00.002+08:00

the only two photos that i liked. look at how fat i am. i seriously have issues obviously. need to move my ass. do something. anything! fuuuuuck. anyways, found a new source for my gg (and other stuff too) fix. yay.

crystalised

2009-12-13T09:13:00.004+08:00

i did something that i never ever thought i would, yesterday. i hate not getting things done right the firt time. but that's always the thing for me. i took my tp twice, hell i didn't even get my citi job the first time round. it was only when they called back after the interview that they decided to take me in anyways. i feel so.....secondhand. urgh hate being emo. i know i went with no expectations but i can't deny feeling that i should get in when i get closer to the line. hahahaha i guess that's what i get for wishful thinking. i think it sucks to be me.

black dirt

2009-12-06T22:05:00.002+08:00

forever gorging myself with food. i dono why i even bother with anything at all. hmmm okay my sister finally got a job and that's so cute cos it's so hard to imagine that. she's still my sissy after all. small innocent amal. so anyway yeah new moon didnt suck so bad. as of now i'm no longer team edward. nor jacob. jacob is too beefy it freaks me out a little. anyway, i think ive found a calling. ssshhhh. another week of school that's got to suuuuck. xmas dinner to look forward too! gifts exchange! yipee. and movies to watch: zombieland and case 39. hungry again. ciao!

fast fuse

2009-12-04T10:32:00.002+08:00

I love my boyfriend so much. I think he's the bestest damn thing that has ever happened to me. Its like I can meet him everyday, have long conversations with him evrynight and I'd still be stoked to go out on dates with him. I think he fits me like a glove. And he listens.

magic pie

2009-11-22T20:14:00.000+08:00

She's the girl that has a few best friends & doesn't need anymore, the girl that laughs the hardest at her own jokes. She's the girl that will hang up on you, but then call you right back & say sorry. She's the girl who will never leave your side when you need her, the girl who will go out of her way to cheer you up. She's the girl who never sleeps without her teddy bear by her side, she's the girl who says she isn't ticklish, but really is. She's the girl who will not give up on you if she really believes in you. She's the girl who believes in loving somebody forever.

cryptic lightning

2009-11-15T14:42:00.001+08:00

if god knows who we'll end up with eventually, why does he still let us meet jerks along the way?

turbocherbo

2009-11-07T00:33:00.001+08:00

i think i just found my bestfriend.

love me already

2009-10-31T22:34:00.000+08:00

everyday it gets harder and I don't know why.

i hate this journal

2009-10-25T19:34:00.005+08:00

i've been munching non stop it's not even funny anymore. i wish i am one of those lucky tards who eat eat eat and never pile on the fats. life is so unfair. i've planned countless times on joining pilates but god, who are we kidding. this stupid keyboard is so fucking annoying!! anyhoos, had my PM paper yesterday and seriously i can't stop cringing at the thought of getting the results. i screwed up. seriousfuckingly. i'm so drained out of my wits. what with school and full-time job which seriously eat up my whole life especially end month. ugh breakouts! I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO BE FUCKING OVER. my finance module kicks in in 2 months. i can't believe i hate school. geees. anyway gotta say the surprise plan for my bf's birthday wasn't really succesful. what do i have to say? i suck at surprises it's so embarassing. nonetheless it was nice spending it with him, getting all chummy and shit. i love you baby xoxo

gone.

2009-10-14T15:13:00.003+08:00

I want you to know that I have a right to have a chance at happiness, good stuff and good life. I feel like shitxzx.

2009-10-05T22:13:00.002+08:00

in my attempt to be more disciplined and curb my apparently raging shopping hormones, I'm gonna list down the things that I need.

yup. nothing. that pretty much sums it.

raw sugar.

2009-10-02T23:51:00.001+08:00

bani hidir is like a dream come true. my dream.
HAHAHA i wuff you boyfriend. catch you later after work while I'm doing boring stuff here. SCHOOL SUCKSZXZ.

on the sly

2009-09-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

ONE FUCKING MEAL PER DAY. NO, SERIOUSLY.

lovedrunk me

2009-09-23T00:50:00.007+08:00

so hari raya is over and done with, move on people. i took some crappy photos over the long holiday (so called) or maybe i just look like crap. hey ho. i think i have kuaypows for cheeks. eversince fasting month ended, i have been snacking non stop. how to lose weight like that? they made it look so easy on tv. anyway i think my digicam takes crappy photos or maybe im just too lazy to learn how to customize features (?) ever since i saw my cousin lug around the big slr or whatevs they call it i want one too. obviously just to act professional hoho now only if they made them in compact sizes. sadly it's just a want just like every other redundant thing in my room. besides having short lived enthusiasm i have short lived desires too it seems. oh well. ugh. hate this life. i think im dying with every beat.

prolly the only decent photo(s) of hari raya that i have.

WHY THE FUCK IS MIKA SWIMMING IN MY HEAD?

the resistance

2009-09-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

okay i am totally digressing right now but i just gotta say muse's latest album sounds so weird. its kinda poppish, too poppish i would say. sigh. what happened matt? saddd. was really looking forward to their latest offering but oh well. dayumm.

say what?

2009-09-13T13:46:00.004+08:00

so i finally added stuff to this dead blog. tag if you want, heck i'll be the butt of the joke cos besides bunny i dont think anyone else knows the existence of this shit. but oh well. it was a toss between livejournal and blogspot but i dont think it makes much difference anyways. so hello! am finding it so hard to function right now cos of the weather.

so here i am back to square one just staring at this screen waiting for something interesting to appear. life's beeen so fucking dull there's nothing much to say or do. OH I'M FINALLY GONNA GET MY OWN CAR! that's pretty interesting right to say the least.

so i have a truckload of stuff to finish. but. i. can't. find. the. drive. to. do. anything. all i wanna do is lie in bed and be bedridden for the rest of the day. there are just so many fucking unintersting things to do like starting on my ass (eeew), clean my room, buy a fucking wardrobe so that i can finally walk freely in my room without having to worry bout tripping. i'm a mess. and that's something new.

and just for fucking fun:

HAHAHA stole it off your fb. i looove you baby!
gee. i think this is the longest post i have ever written in a long time.
ok bye.

chibmunk

2009-09-11T08:58:00.000+08:00

I'm having such a stupid morning right now. eat eat eat eat. never ear will die meh??? Cb

retreat

2009-09-09T00:19:00.004+08:00

hate the feeling when people are taken away from me. hate feeling excited for no apparent reason. its just..stupid. i have issues.

retrograde

2009-09-06T23:56:00.001+08:00

what's the point in living despite having a bright future, a stable (shit) job that pays you well, a big house or your own stupid car which you don't even need, if you have noone to share it with? not much if you ask me. I've walked down this road far too many times in my life its so frustrating. its apparent that I need you in my life.

there are just far too many things in my mind right now for me to put them into words. why can't everything fall into place. whyyyyyyy dear god, why?

nothing better

2009-09-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

my enthusiasm lasts as long as a lighted matchstick. i'm supposed to be starting on my assignment but as usual procrastination got the better of me. yeah, again. sigh. i wish i could see my boyfriend later today but..umm we shall see. it has been a non productive week this whole week. sadly the week ends in lesser than 48 hours. everything moves at fuckfast speed, even breathing is a waste of time. i sound so old. ok bye, before my cibai of an internet die on me. my life is as stagnant as a...u figure that out.

man

2009-09-04T13:45:00.000+08:00

nothing much to say or do. currently just idling nursing a swollen eye.
sighhh. i'm a broken heart.

gdgjdkgfgtb

2009-08-22T20:18:00.000+08:00

Omg I'm so fucking pissed off right now you have no freaking idea. It's because of people like them you feel so fucking small. Ugh. Seriously am I even fat? I know this is just so superficial and not even worth thinking about but it's been drilled in my brain for a while there must be some truth to it right? Ugh so fucking annoying luh cibai. I'm not even 55kg and they are talking so much! are my arms supposed to be stick thin or are my thighs supposed to be e size of of twigs for me to conform to thesomewhat unwritten code of being beautiful? Cos my boyfriend thinks I'm beautiful.

untitled.

2009-08-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

this page is as dead as i am. just got back from work dinner which just sucked (and i puked a whole lotta coke), met my baby which instantly brightened up my night. maybe i'll be back. or maybe i'm on the move again (haha). school starts tomoro. umm okay.

everything and more

2009-08-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

ares

2009-07-30T08:35:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep peacefully at night not knowing if you are gonna be there with me the next morning. I cannot imagine life without you anymore. It'll be fine. You'll be fine. Sometimes all you need is a little faith even when nothing's certain. All I want is to make you happy. Why do bad things happen to good people?

arpeggi

2009-07-20T00:53:00.003+08:00

today I fucked up pretty bad.
and if anything were to happen to him,
I'll never be able to forgive myself ):

the tease that drives me nuts

2009-07-19T14:47:00.002+08:00

he was fucking teasing me with hysteria. I'd prolly die happy if he had played that song there and then. ugh. plus he looked so cute and vulnerable under the soft soft lights on the stage, I just wanna run up and give him a hug or something. bani hidir you have no idea how you make me feel, you drive me crazy out of my tits. and I have my own awesome goodnight and goodmorning songs. i dono anyone else who has their own songs! I'm excited its like I'm waiting for santa, except that bani hidir is real. trojan horse, helicopter, time is running out and other rocking tunes! Its like a soundtrack to my life of some sort. i knows its gonna sound awesome and shiz!

kitty cat.

2009-07-06T12:47:00.001+08:00

here i am: wishing, hoping, waiting. and waiting. i don't know what can be worse than not knowing.

bedshaped

2009-07-05T16:35:00.002+08:00

there are just too many things running through my mind i just can't seem to find the right words to say. all i know is that you'll be fine. u have to. u promised. sigh.this is just so depressing.

passion pit

2009-06-28T21:03:00.001+08:00

you're more than in my head. you're more than that.

mucky fingers

2009-06-19T23:13:00.004+08:00

i like the fact that i said you don't look like the sort who date(s) malay girls (which is so true considering the fact that all the girls you dated are mostly chinese which is kinda awesome), but the truth is now you are. and you're mine. mine. that sounds good. i'm just gonna be bitchy and say that i'm sorry but you guys are too late. this is something that i can hold on to with both hands and i'm not gonna let anything or anyone fuck this up for me. because deep in the guts of my stomach, i know i deserve this. i'm not going all psycho on things right now, we all know who the psycho is (inside joke, heh heh) but the point is this is too fawesome to be destroyed. seven more days baby :)) i'm dying with every tick cos despite knowing how shizz it's gonna be, the anticipation is killing me softly!!

hunting for witches

2009-06-16T21:38:00.004+08:00

so many many things to do but i just can't seem to function ugh. had an awesome day last night with bunneh. caught ghosts of girlfriends past, i got a little teary eyed at the end and the lump in my throat was overwhelming but apparently i don't do public tears. i was able to enjoy it completely if not for his stupid friend kicking my seat every few minutes or so. fannoying i swear! nyeh! drove to the rooftop where we had a fawsome time but it wasn't very breezy. fun nonetheless. so what's the story morning glory? nothing much. no interesting news anymore, no juicy gossips, nada, zilch, nothing. happy first baby (: i'm literally squirming inside for 26th to come!! take me away!

alone, together

2009-06-13T01:08:00.007+08:00

i waited for a thousand years for you to come and blow me out of my mind. we need new photos, need to get started on gss shopping, need a haircut, need to get pjs, need to start on my bitch of an assignment(s), need my daily dose of you. i need a life. i know i say this like all the time but i can never get around doing it.

the curious case of the twitch

2009-06-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

I know you won't disappoint.
Because you won't.

wolf at the door

2009-06-08T00:00:00.002+08:00

he said i'm fucking shaking legs. i am not. shaking legs to me, means not doing anything in e ship, expecting the goods from the other person while you just be fucking unreasonable and expect them to clean the mess up, not caring how the other person feels while they try to meet ALL your whims and demands. i know i can be a bitch sometimes but i am certainly not shaking my legs.

but we'll be okay. it's just a passing grey cloud.

mercury

2009-06-06T01:48:00.000+08:00

i just had the best day/night with you, it's getting a little insane still trying to reel from it all. what have you gotten me into? ugh I don't even care anymore. going crazy in an awesome way (well, i heard from someone). suddenly we are growing dimples in different places. Is this shiz even for real? geeeee.

take me there

2009-06-04T00:32:00.005+08:00

never in my life have I ever wanted someone so much. honest. my day starts and ends with you. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I wanna be your everyfuckingthing and I wanna walk with you through this journey. together. for as long as you're willing to hold my hand. I've never been more sure of anything else in my life before and it's freaking awesome how everything is falling right into place like little jigsaw puzzle pieces. others might call it naive (do I give a shit?). to me it's magic :)

your visits are getting shorter.

2009-06-03T01:02:00.005+08:00

as usual, today was nothing short of awesome shizz albeit the stupid weather. little britain, bits and pieces of movies here and there, and pizaza loving. can things get any better? heh heh. and now, i so can't wait for that ultimate day. Its gonna be so awesome I can fucking feel it in my guts. im so excited and so stoked over the whole last minute (sorta) plan. need to get stuff. I'm actually making a goddamned list! u drive me crazy I just can't sleep. on an empty stomach. it's painful. I'm hungry.

ideas for a story

2009-05-31T01:14:00.002+08:00

I wish I was anywhere with you rather than here, alone and wrinkled, in bed. My dad's back for awhile so there'll be lesser night outs but of course not entirely wiped out that'll be crazy. Heh. Going cuckoo in a fuzzycrazy way (but I bet you already knew that), why should I deny myself something this awesome? Good things are meant to be shared. I'm lucky I have you.

helicopter

2009-05-30T13:02:00.003+08:00

and it'll be clear if i wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.

krafty

2009-05-24T13:29:00.001+08:00

experiencing hysteria live straight from the horse's mouth is the shizz I tell you. how can someone I know sound so awesome? aaaah you drive me silly crazy baby you have no idea. still reeling from it. i need to see you soon. plus other awesome people. :))

let it rock

2009-05-22T21:15:00.002+08:00

i had an awesome day out today with my boyfriend :) i can't wait for tomorrow. peektures soon i hope :x

who's doing what with who

2009-05-18T23:37:00.003+08:00

i found a new friend to keep me company for those long, cold (or hot) nights.

happy birthday

2009-05-17T22:33:00.002+08:00

we are ours. but we are still sold separately. i like the sound of that. i like you too :) i think i just made our day. hee happy birthday :))

please don't touch

2009-05-17T02:48:00.000+08:00

I want only you.

bunny club

2009-05-12T22:22:00.003+08:00

FUCK I HATE MY DESKTOP SO MUCH PLUS ALL THE SHITS IN IT! UGHHHH. on the other hand, this is all mine. sugar overload, it's too sweeeeeet. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZ9J1PjEpHU

love song

2009-05-11T07:33:00.001+08:00

why do people unravel the past and hurt themselves? why do I still give a shit? fuck.

a quick peep

2009-05-10T20:51:00.003+08:00

everytime i think of you i get a shot right through into a bolt of blue. it's no problem of mine but it's a problem i find. living a life that i can't leave behind.

love me if you want to

2009-05-08T19:50:00.003+08:00

things are a lot different right now. had a farewell team lunch (whatevs), bought my awesome awesome sandals (ok fine, not really that awesome like since an hour ago?) and knocked off early from work today. in fact, it's the 3rd time this week. cool shizz or what. anyhoos, i can't wait for tomorrow :) i heard from someone that we are heading to somewhere different yeay? but i'm not one for surprises HAHA. school resumes next month gaaaag. another assignment to complete in 3 weeeeks. but its still too early to get started now no? life has been somewhat stagnant. i need an adventure. or maybe i just need a life. or something.

sold separately

2009-05-07T01:16:00.002+08:00

sometimes, I dono what the fuck I'm babbling about. I think I just had both my feet in my mouth. You deserve so much better. Someone who knows how to treat you right, especially someone who loves you. Someone who deserves your attention and care. you probably don't know this but I'm sorry I can't be that person. It's just that I'm better alone. I bet you cookies you're gonna spill a little secret in that box. Nyeh!

have you ever?

2009-05-05T08:31:00.001+08:00

one thing I realised about you, when you fall, you fall in deep.

and I can't handle that.

you drive me crazy

2009-05-03T18:03:00.001+08:00

she is just so adorable. heee. can't wait! :)

anywhere but here

2009-05-01T22:18:00.002+08:00

today was one of the bestest days i had with you amidst the crowd at tampines and the weather. what's up with the weather lately yeah? the usual trippings, snorts and other embarassing antics that you can everr think of (biar uh eh?). i can't wait for breakfast with you tomorrow (i hope it happens if you don't oversleep heee!), plus movies and what nots. i don't care if friday the 13th is stupid or lame or unscary. ugh. i just wanna be close to you.

strange lights

2009-04-28T02:38:00.000+08:00

i wish i can run up to you and your sweet sweet embrace and tell you that i care for you in ways you never knew existed. or how much i wanna be there for you. or how much i love you. you probably won't ever know.

because i can't.

agoraphobia

2009-04-27T01:20:00.001+08:00

it is possible that i want you because you're not all mine yet. i never had anyone cook for me before. well, i had someone bake cupcakes for me before (ok let's not get there) but this was different. we had fried chicken and stuff. i love chicken so much i cannot imagine eating anything else. chicken is the shizz i tell you, besides me of course. and then it was just me and you. and u played a song u made up spontaneously for me. how sweeetzxz (lol). aaah you're just so amazazing you know that? yeah, i want you but i can't give you more (me).